Double failure, suck in studies and suck at everything. Im such a failure.
But, i will not give up.
不会放弃，直到最后一刻。
Kai Sheng
- Realisation.
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duckchronicles- April 30th, 23:53
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- duckchronicles
- April 30th, 20:22
- Fruitful day... :D
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- duckchronicles
- April 23rd, 21:49
It has been so uneventful until today when so many things happened. O.O
FINALLY AFTER SO MUCH HANDSTANDS, IM FINALLY STABILIZED WITH ONE HANDED! :D
Its yielding harvest after months of farming, eating ice cream after weeks of savings, scoring full marks after mugging like mad and jumping higher after weeks of training! FINALLY AT LAST! :D (curse people who can do it at their first try :x )
o.o n we are challenged to a battle. Dont think we're ready yet... still amateur and its after mid years.. :O
So i guess we gotta train real hard!
Today me, yang n keith went to ehub's fifth storey to find jeslyn n rachel after playing soccer n stuffs... We started playing ball and i thought yang said "Try spiking me".. which in fact he was like. "Dont try to spike me" O.O yeah n i hit the ball onto the ground which bounced out of control n down it went to the superdog at the 2nd storey... *BOM* it went.. and we rushed down to retreive the ball. No one said anything or approached us so i thought that we were safe.. ? o.o But some management guy n a cleaner was looking down from the fifh storey....... Now that i realised at last..
I'M BUSTED.
Tmr morning im probably gonna find mr gng before he comes up to me.. *pray god..*
But anyway tmr i can leave class at 12.15 cuz im gonna go collect prize for school. Wearing blaziers n tie too! :D
I didnt know i can be so vain that i took photos of myself.. :O
Gonna be a long day tmr D: Thats all for now!
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- duckchronicles
- April 11th, 22:37
calm
Leadership is about changing, driving and affecting people for the good. It cannot be measured or compared, but by how significant one's life can be changed and altered for the better. It cannot be measured in quantity too, even if its just one person, it means his world.
Friendship, bonds that cannot be easily broken. They are like threads of lotus roots, may though be battered, but bond remains. It is invisible, but forged in the heart, and could only be felt by individuals, not by actions, but by memories shared together. It is another form of love, that is pure, without selfishness, desire, or lust, but plain heartfelt warmth that lingers forever, unmoved by time.
Love, a very profound thing indeed, it exists and roots in many ways and forms, in our everyday life that keeps our heart beating. For that everything are created from love, even hatred, love that has been thwarted and warped into the wrong way. Being blinded by hatred, is akin to be blinded by love, for thats the thing that one could hold on dearly, even to their last breath. Love is also the thing that guides and cause one remain fervently, unchanging. Through love that we could see precious qualities in human, like determination, perseverance and resistance.
Precious lesson on leadership and love.
I'm still hanging there.
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- duckchronicles
- March 24th, 18:44
- chipper
- Awakening.
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- duckchronicles
- January 27th, 12:42
Yesterday was a chore of boredom, practically did nothing at all apart from starring hard at the clock for time to past. Collection dwindles as economy, lowest were $4s while highest were $12s. But nvm, something heartening is that i can afford to eat and spend more extravagantly cuz these 'tops up' to my new month of pocket money. Rather than complaining which spoils the whole mood of the season, why not think optimistically:)
Today is a tv day, i guess, only to be stucked at home to rot. Watched doraemon in the pleasant morning:)its a great show. Then, i realised that i havent filled up my hefei reflection booklet yet. Emotions pinched.
All the things that happened since the first day, boarded n touched down on nanjing. Exchanged caps with chingye allan n weiyan then board onto the coach. Had lunch and went to confucius temple................... ... .... it went on.
Everything happened so vividly and so quickly, it seems to be yesterday n a flash from now. Just when i realised, its already over. But all these things will always be a part of me, in me, that makes who i am. All the friends i've made, meant to me much more of how much i could imagine. I'm missing the times again, and it sores even more..
I cant make myself to do the reflections, i dont know why.
- Bitten by a 'dog'
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- duckchronicles
- January 21st, 22:35
discontent
Today was wasted. Both time and money.
Darn, i didnt go for today's training to retake a new IC photo as friday is the submission. School's one was kind of screwd up and i looked as if im a jail bird. :/ Didnt want to skip training at all, but considering that its a life kinda thing so i was forced by the circumstance to skip training. Darn, how am i gonna make up for it. Feels bad skipping..
(I am not gonna do it again, i promise.)
Anyway, was anticipating to take a nice photo but everything got so screwd up.. Paid $$15 and the hair cut sux. Darn, it seems professional but the hairdresser was like 'normally for students, we give them slope cuz their hair is too short. Layer is for long hair'. -.- Darn, my hair was killed.. T.T Looks as if got bitten by a dog at the back n the side burn... She sloped me, wtf. Wats more is that she 'trimmed' the hair both at the back and top like shit... Dont even seem like layered and spiking is disgusting.
Hence, i wasted $15 and another $6 for a decent IC photo with a ugly sight of myself.
In class, Bryan was like "haha 15years later when ur son ask to see ur ic photo, he think that ur a gangster from a jail school."
Well, now i think id rather retain my hair n use that photo.
This is a nice cool song that keeps repeating in my head. Hmm im addicted to it.
- Feels sucky.
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- duckchronicles
- January 19th, 20:30
- drained
Alright, today was supposed to be a happy day until i reach home. So i guess i'll start on cheerful stuffs.
Today went to training and played match. :D I guess i kinda got the hook of floaters and the instinct of killing spikes. Gotta polish on my setting so i can set for my teammates, a step to there!
Expected to leave the classroom brain dead after the maths refresher test, surprised to find that its not that bad afterall. Just my time management cuz i couldnt get to finish 3pages... 14marks T.T (hope theres point rewarded for working)
Found some new breakdancing enthus! Hope can form a crew with chingye, zixi, me and wilfred (not his friends, pls.)
Ok, here comes the infuriating part. I'm kind of sad as 3 of my betta fries died while choking onto blood worms, which im actually witnessing another one dying.. Heartache, no doubts and extremely down in fact. I merely said a bit of my thoughts n feelings, which my sis got damn f-ed up. Cuz she has been helping me to take care of em and was indirectly responsible for it.
BUT, I have never blamed her and i felt that it was my responsibility that they died as im supposed to care for em myself. Instead, i am grateful of her help. Wat that was damn fucked up was my grandma actually tried to rub salt into wound and start describing the way they died and how bad it was. She just start pouring oil onto ruffled feathers and kept trying to worsen feelings n the situation.
THERE i shouted, stop. and my sis starts screaming at me. So yeah started the quarrel and shoutings. Fucked up.
K, didnt mean to use vulgarities but i have lost control of my self.
walaaouu im not a traitor. Gave in as a 'stranger' alrdy, im so torn apart.. :(
- Kena-ed accident..
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- duckchronicles
- January 17th, 23:09
- chipper
Im finally back to lj after so long cuz i couldnt find time!
So many things have happened within this period of time, but yeah i shall not get too off tracked from my topic. So i'll start about today!:D
Woke up at 10am (Im not that kind who kicks out of bed at noon:) I went to the mrt station as fast as my legs could carry me cuz i was late! Supposed to buy some files today with her, hmm. I had this strange feeling when she told me that shes at guardian so i went on searching up and down frantically for it. (went round the whole of pasir ris mrt) 'Was it me or was it whitesands?" So this thought occured to me when i was near desperation and i was like 'COULD IT BE SIMEI OR TAMPINESE MRT.. ?' And i was right, im a train ride away. So yeah that shows that im not that sua ku uh. ;)
I guess im gonna pretend colourblindness in front of Mr Pi cuz i bought a 'red' file.. I dont know if i'll get through, but who cares? :D Thats cool.:) I guess im gonna fight my way through:/ Gotta keep note to wear jeans or long pants next time or i'll seem like a kiddo. (I looked short D:)
Went back to whitesands after bidding goodbye. Ran up to popular was the first thing i did and spent some time there to get a perfect nice green file. (dunno if she likes it but i did thought much through) I gotta rush to cycle and find weiyan and allan at ris grandeur! I had to decide which route to take, which in the end i chose cycling cuz it had been long since i spent time with my bradders. So sorry neo, ka heng n fishball for being late. Was i wrong..
So yeah, everything was smooth sailing until the last part when Im returning back to our bicycle 'base'. My bike lan gah-ed and i flew off with a dive.(*whew* or i'll land on my face) The bike was scratchless but i did. :/ I guess i gotta consult Diana.
Today was a happy day although it was my 3rd cycling accident.:D
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- duckchronicles
- January 5th, 21:13
pissed off
U make me completely lose my mood to do anything. For that kind of friend that u look at me as, and every word that we said n vowed. Do they mean nothing? And wheres ur will? Ur such a let down, am i wrong about you?
- In a homework struggle.. :/
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- duckchronicles
- January 4th, 23:26
tired
Since its so late alrdy so i shall edit text and blog on tmr.
Finally completed 9 articles.. 9 more to go x . x
Worried of how to face ms fah/ mrs wong tmr in the morning.. sigh.
After watching campus superstar, i suddenly got this great urge to listen to more chinese songs! Im becoming an english person. : /
I guess i'll just knock out for now. o.o
- Not looking back.
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- duckchronicles
- January 3rd, 23:05
- chipper
K, as the title says cos theres a tv behind my head. Officially hate horror films, simply a waste of money.. :/
Again, anyone who have watched and enjoyed 'Stranger' SLAP YOURSELF TEN TIMES NOW AND CALL THE AMBULANCE TO SEND YRSELF TO THE NEAREST MENTAL HOSPITAL/CLINIC CUZ U KNOW WAT, UR DIAGNOSED INSANE...
Today was another saturday passed. Early in the morning received a heart breaking news as i opened my eyes.. "YOUR BLUE BETTA SPAWN IS WIPED OUT. THERES DISEASE." k, that was my sister. (betta = commonly known as fighting fish. spawn= new born bred babies) Although that was for a project, but its kinda damn saddening cuz i put much hope n effort in it.. but still death was inevitable.. sigh..
Spent the next half of the day in a EA meeting, revamped and improved on our item for the sec 1 orientation. Hope that works. It gotta be successful! Thereafter, went lan and had my first DOTA game. Wow. Kz i know im deprived.. Im not a cyber person : /
Only done 4 newspaper reflection article which currently left with 14 more to complete by tmr.. Mon has to hand up to Ms Fa/ Mrs Wong or i'll get even more screwd cuz she alrdy has bad impression of me.. darn, ms thang badmouthed me:( HEH I TRUSTED HER AS A CONFIDANTE.. D: HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO ME.. ! 真不够朋友。。: /
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- duckchronicles
- January 3rd, 11:23
bouncy
Struggling to finish wat that is undone.. I'll be grateful to whoever willing to lend me their NEWSPAPER ARTICLE REFLECTIONS :D
Homework starts haunting me. :/
Sometimes when things are done in conscience, there is a surge of greater courage and strength that would fill you. 'Cuz you're doing things that are right, which wrong can never triumph. The counterpart would be pricked by their conscience.
What that is fact, even if twisted by words it would never change. Even if the world is deceived, deep in you and that person. The fact remains. Till the end of the time, she'll be in pain, pricked by guilt and conscience. I hope i reminded her.
- School reopened.
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- duckchronicles
- January 2nd, 20:49
- uncomfortable
Have i just created another problem, did i do something wrong again?
I cant shake that off from all the uneasiness from ur face, WHAT HAVE I DONE... ?!
Did i just pushed u down the cliff, that nothing may atone for my blunder...
Sometimes i wish i could save you.
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- duckchronicles
- December 29th, 2008
- drained
Life
In the midst of difficulties,
lie opportunities.
In the midst of despairity,
lie hope.
In the midst of sadness,
lie happiness.
In the midst of loneliness,
lie kinship.
In the midst of coldness,
lie warmth.
In the midst of lost
lies direction.
Never give up.
- Ijimae
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- duckchronicles
- December 28th, 2008
Ijimae is a great must watch korean show.. !
(P.S im not paid to say that :D)
- my first job.. :D
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- duckchronicles
- December 28th, 2008
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Today was a tiring day.. :D FINALLY FOUND THE SOLUTION TO GET MYSELF OUT OF POVERTY.. GIVE OUT FLIERS! :D
K, it may sound fun, easy and good money.. but NO. U should slap urself twice for thinking this way and 10 times for saying it. :/
Rain, or shine (blazing scorching sun), u'll have to grit ur teeth and hold tightly to 6 stacks of fliers (100 per stack) and go to every single household in every HDB block and slot nicely into their door grills. Sometimes, when the door is left open and the owner's at home, its damn awkward to do the job lar, which u may get screamed, ranted or simply put off. Theres at least 3-4 homes like this to encounter per STOREY. Besides, theres some unleashed dogs (of course, in the house x . x) who would charge up towards the gate and bark at u when u approach. So, i lowered my head to an took the chance whenever the dog is away from the door, and even sprint off after placing the flier. I HELD MY NATURE'S CALL FOR 3HOURS. omg. HDB definitely needs public toilet..
I felt as if im doin things in dark, like things that would annoy the residence and get ranted at, although im doing nothing wrong but my job. Just have to lower my head as if im sorry for something wrong, and run away as chanced. Like a thief who stole something, im a just person who left a flier. Pride has to be put aside...
Earning money is never easy. So treasure every dollar, or even cent which is given by ur parents, cuz they exchanged them with their sweat and effort.
- GOT MY $4 BACK... :)
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- duckchronicles
- December 26th, 2008
- bouncy
Counting from the days to school reopen.. : 6. Ohh my god i havent been doing my homework!!! :o AND ive only completed maths practise paper 1 which is like.. 12% of all the work. Today was just another day passed, which fortunately, thanks to my friends being with me who helped me end it in a flash. o.o TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A HOMEWORK DAY... i rewarded myself break on christmas... : /
After so many days, finally see my classmates again in the morning, who shout and ranted around in my home and corridoor. For the first time my mom was like THANK GOODNESS when i left the house as she just had a GOOD RIDDANCE. Oh well nvm, but i feel kinda bad cuz its rare for her to be on leave to accompany me n my sis but both of us went out. My sis in the morning, and myself in the afternoon. FELT LIKE A SHIFT WORKER...
ANYWAY! The main point is as stated in the subject.. GOT MY $4 BACK. Ah, finally cleared the wrench of indignant and betrayal after getting back from CHAN ZI XI. WHO COLLUDED WITH CHINGYE TO CON ME WITH A FREE TEDDY BEAR FROM A CARNIVAL. Gah.. wasted it on the most expensive drink to appease myself.. which turned out to be a hard time for myself struggling to gush the durian chendol down my throat... I thought i nearly died when i was finished. Then went on BREAKDANCING! :D
DARN, COULDNT DO AN AIR FREEZE. But at least i did swipe. :D
THANKS ALLAN SO MUCH FOR UR CHRISTMAS CARD!!:D:D In my eyes its not ugly at all! In fact one of the best cards ive ever received. Thanks allan, i will cherish it well.
Since all those things, i dunno how to face or even talk to you, even smses turn cold... I have to watch every little actions. Just dont want it to be awkward for u.
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- duckchronicles
- December 25th, 2008
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- duckchronicles
- December 19th, 2008
Another day passed, time seemed to be crawling till a great sense of urgency nudged me like a alarm clock... I HAVENT FINISH ANY OF MY HOMEWORK. Darn. But nvm i guess im going to chiong with my utmost effort to finish before school reopens...
Another inconvenient truth is.. IM LEFT WITH FOUR DAYS OF MY HEFEI REFLECTION! which i must seriously squeeze some brain juice to write.. sigh. :(
Today just passed with vball matches at poi ching primary.. SO SO SO SOOOORRYY HUIYI! Didnt mean to oversleep, really. but my sis was the one who switched off the alarm.. At least sent u the messages in time, before u leave or i think i'll be regretful for days.. :/ THANKS ALLAN AND WEIYAN FOR UR INSPIRATIONAL MENTAL TRAINING.
Haix.. thought today i could play but i actually threw my chance away! GRR DARN. I shldnt have pushed it away when zhesheng tried putting me in.. darn, never did i know that it was the LAST SET! Shit. but nvm cuz i doubt i'd be in the morale to play after he left. There is 2 person whom i have to thank and they are who had ever made me so heartfelt with, Zhesheng and Zicong. U're really the greatest senior ever, which i had to salute u, zhesheng, despite all the sucky attitude which u have been facing from ppl yet u still pesevered n held on staying. I hope to let you know that even if the rest dun treat you in the proper manner, u will always earn my respect. Zicong, whom i owe greatly to, without him i wouldnt have corrected the error which has hurdled me in ways. Thanks for training me, and i promise i will train hard, definitely.
Its also today that Ive finally known tampinese, which in conclusion, a MAZE. Wow today me n allan took 2 hours finding that school after being deceived unintentionally by a random auntie who gave us the wrong directions. Well but still salvaged anyway, by a kind auntie at the minimart where we bought drinks from.
This is me when my sis tried to play with my mum's new phone's camera.-.- My fringe was clipped up by my sis cuz its making me grow pimples. obviously that made me quite pissed.. >.-
O.O 5megapixel.
I know if its rachael or regina, they'll be like FIVE TIMES OF YOURS.. ! THANKS FOR ALL THE REMINDERS.
